MY PERSONAL REFLECTIONS

How much must be said to expose a souls character? How far back must one go to achieve legitimacy? When is a child declared an adult, and is not an adult a child? How divisive the arguments of normal. What is the line where truth reigns over lies?

I initially had a fortunate early childhood. I grew up in the town of Kensington, adjacent to the city of Berkely, California. I was free to play in the mud and bury Matchbox cars joyfully eating graham crackers in a pre-school Lutheran church. The panoramic view of Oakland being built from the brightest blinking pink Emporium sign, and San Francisco’s Bank of America rise to the TransAmerica Pyramid construction and beyond; Twin Peaks and Golden Gate Park. Memories of Tilden’s Merry-Go-Round and more, to the incredible childhood wonderous fantasy of San Francisco’s Playland by the Sea, and the Sutro baths before it burned down; ah Santa Cruz’s beach boardwalk. I witnessed so much more than could be written here, and I somewhat wait to see if any genuine interest exists to know my more extensive complete story.

All paths require more explanation for true clarity. How can books of words hold the extremes of a life’s in and out angles of impact. In short, along with having a hateful twin sister, my parents decided to so detrimentally flunk me in the second grade, for receiving a “C” in reading. We all have wounds of youth. On to lustfully loving too many females, and holding piercing suicidal thoughts, I survived somehow and now thank God for such a wonderful and loyal wife of 33 short years. Torturously, I am a Marine Corps Veteran, although all I learned was more about corruption and hierarchal lies from the denying elite. I was told, “We all know the system is built on a pile of lies, so don’t try to change it.” Affliction hones the character of truth in an honest heart as it is stomped on. It seems our world remains complacent, with liars wiping the honest under the carpets of written deception. Early sorrows have deepened my soul to endure. I stand as, and believe to be, an American Patriot. What books or works should I focus on with my time left? Time is short in all the long incomplete chains. It will depend on the associations I have yet to meet or the paths my lone heart decides to travel, with the ones I love.

Who is able to express all the brilliant and despicable encounters that unfold before us all? I am best able to introduce myself by exposing some of my percolating ideas and opinions. My Darkness Book has over 10,000 of my own created quotes, with sights on other labor intensive manuscripts. It doesn’t take much to offend people these days. With the nature of our civilization and “political correctness” or partisan fears, egg-shells seem to litter our fear-filled finger pointing foundation. Denials. There is hate and jealousies pervading our society, which no one can ignore. We lack the fortitude to look hard at the truth, running for holes or ostracizing those courageous enough to stand for the truth they believe. The honest are attacked and or removed. Is it that we don’t want to stun that proverbial rock and lose our jobs? Dread slashes and burns us. Complacency and fear includes cowards, and this assists in the dreadful devouring of our future bound noble children. The vultures circle our monuments of initial founding truths and intent for justice’s sake, all meant to be built upon for the betterment of our children.

It is certainly a social travesty, for ourselves and our children, when, “since any truth(?) is tolerable”, that then in fact, “no truth may be heard.” Where is honest plain understanding? We carry fear as our guiding light condemning us all for the shame of it, cowering under the liars. Thieves and bullies rule the land. Glory has never been hidden, and when has outspoken truth kept civilization from achieving a greater honor for the benefit of all? Martyred Kings illuminate the past. We hide in the coffin of our disgrace. It is entirely damaging when we put up with the lies from those who call evil good and cold hot. How utterly shameful when criminals are honored, and how shallow is the depth and forefront of our genuine concerns? Hypocrisy and duplicity are amplified. Without knowledge in truth, ignorance prevails within decay, as most become enraged over engaged. Is there nowhere for the righteous to be heard, and where and who would stand for absolute truth alive, among us? As that “Christ” moment slips away, many ‘Thomas Paines’ speak, but few are heard over evils avalanching clamor. How can we trust in all that befalls us? Dishonorable leaders is what fails us.

Without courage of truth there can be no direction toward clarity for all. We are held in bondage by our own ignorance to the monsters that control us. Forty odd plus years ago I made the statement that the nature of our country was that of a Decentralized Triple Fascist (Business-Unions-Banks) Capitalistic, Socialistic Society with a Communist Military. It didn’t make me popular then, and I don’t expect it will now, although plutocracy has always been the warning. Seriously, the larger question is, why do we fear the truth so? And if it is so offensive, is it for our arrogant nature and illusions of superiority? Even to the ludicrous point of being the pinnacle of civilization, at least the best the world has to offer; the best of the worst? In our best that she’s got world, man ravaging upon man, Intelligent Design is scuttled for no other reason than because Evolution is more convenient, lacking moral accountability. And while Intelligent Design has more observable factual basis, with Evolution crumbling for lack of reducible evidence, we choose fantasy over reality. We claim control and achieve less. Lawlessness is the order of law, both materially and spiritually. Man in his greatness has no shortage of petty ignorance, and scheming against his brother. Unfortunately for our children, our blindness has handicapped our brilliance.

If I offend you, please forgive me. It is not so much my intention or goal, but it would be hard to expect anything else. Jesus was offensive and still is for His commitment to the truth, and I choose to stand for the greater good no matter the condemnation. Many feel the blade of smite. My true hope would be for us to question those things that tear from the tranquility of a people, lies and injustice; now residing at the core of whom we are. Our institutions have skewed into the privileged few, failing the vast majority of us, and especially those for where fairness was intended to protect all. Quite frankly, social justice eludes us as the quagmire of corruption has so utterly overwhelmed us that it seems like no more than a mad race to nowhere.

In the land of ‘where the innocent are held accountable and criminals would be set free,’ lawlessness abounds from the top down. Where shines noble examples of character? As we dimly punch at the darkness, pray our light returns, and honesty arrives. I believe that unless a spiritual resurgence overtakes the land, anarchy is just ahead after some major catastrophic natural disaster or an endemic plague occurs; even the nightmare of New York and perhaps Washington D.C. being vaporized in a terrorist attack. Corruption’s frantic Martial law is just looking for a controlling reason. Heartbreak surrounds us. We can all agree that we live in fragile times, unsure of the security of our national future. A massive restructuring and simplifying is mandatory for the survival of the founding Fathers noble objectives, and our future safety. We may very well be at a point where there is not a political solution to our besieged world. I believe that if there is any chance for a "civilization revival" of decency and respect, it can only come through a collective of individual spiritual efforts regarding accountability over recklessness, from those that would oppress us. Where is Congress and the Supreme Court? What is the cost to protect and honor the truth? Lawyers have overburdened the meek with prohibitive fees. The collapse of our children is where embitterment suppresses truth, and the desire for it. Rebellion is in the winds.

To avoid failure, education must be structured to encourage desirous growth early, over the current trend of rebellion, not desiring the burdens of higher thinking. Cancel the department of education? Many now plot in using social service’s entitlements to perpetuate the desperate cycle of ignorance, increasing the oppression of dependence. Burdens increase where prisons swell and the scholarly shrink. To our detriment, one mad gunman is more powerful than an entire aircraft carrier battle group. As for the business of arrogant politics, those individuals have no place in representing a great nation or people by the people. Tyranny infects all that is good.

I myself, am that I am. No mortal life is without struggles as perfection reaches out above us all. Pray what buries us is not so deep that we cannot climb out. Each of us holds an unending and unwritten story of both tragedies and glories. We are not static creatures; the agony and the ecstasy. I hope to share much more than this brief message, as, and if, time permits, with a more complete autobiography, and broad conclusive social spiritual analysis with charts and diagrams. The course of a people is driven by consensus. Absolving ourselves from God’s authority and His demand for accountability, softens social conscience toward the acceptance of evil. We have become an all-too-familiar welfare prison state, which is a downward spiral for us all. Inhumane and unjust punishment stifles our success. Huge are the problems we confront. Whether you join in my ideas or not, I wish you personal spiritual strength, and that the righteous truth can again shine forth without fear throughout the land. Let us stand as a united nation in and for God’s own.